Introducing...Lil Ol Me, Naomi

Hello there, I'm Naomi.

This is my first post. 

It will also be an introduction of myself. 

I am no different from you. I am a plain Jane. Not special in any way. 

But this is where we all start. Some may have a few advantages, some less. Some may even have disadvantages, which is truly unfortunate. But let's not ponder on the unfortunate beginnings. 

Let's focus on the now, wherever that may be. 

I am a woman who turned a lot of negatives into positives and some positives into negatives. 

My father left us when I was young. I witnessed a messy divorce and was stuck in between a "Tell him blah blah blah," "What did he tell you?" "Tell her blah blah blah," "What did she tell you?" and so on. 

I had a sickness from when I was twelve. I moved around a lot. Had to see my mom work 2-3 jobs and come home late at night exhausted. As a result, I dreaded asking for money to buy a new backpack or even that cute pencil case that all my friends had.
It hurt me whenever my mom told me, "Behave so well that no one would imagine you were fatherless." She meant well. I understood. In fact, those words shaped me to be a better person. 

Hmmm...what else? Ah, my grades were also average. Being an Asian though, people assumed I was smart. Hahaha! I have to admit that I have cheated on tests for which I was less prepared. I was an introvert and an observer. I was bullied by a few girls, teased by some guys. I never understood why. I was just so average. Not too ugly and not too pretty. Not too smart, definitely not too smart, and not too stupid. Not too studious and not too rebellious. I was quiet and shy but not too much. In fact, I was almost the shyest girl in the class, but someone else beat me to that title. Boy, was I average! 

Now...I am confident. Not so average. I have quite a few accomplishments. How did I turn all that 'average-ness' around? I guess accepting who I am, all the beauties as well as the uglies. Then, focusing on what I want and taking things one tiny step at a time. 

But you know what? Do you what the key really was? It was my faith in God. 

It is actually pretty logical. 

I learned God was good. I began to love God. I believed in God. I believed He was perfect. I exalted Him. Then, I find out that God loves me. What?! The perfect God loving measly old me? I have two choices. Because I am nothing, God must be a lie to love me. Or God is perfect and I have absolute faith in Him, so if someone perfect like Him were to love me, I must be special.
I chose the latter. 

That brought me here. 

But I am not satisfied with here. Not that I am greedy or that I am unhappy. 

I want to live a valuable life. I want to live the rest of my life with a sense of adventure. 

I am curious to where God will lead me.

Let's go on this journey together. No pressure.
You can tune in when you feel like it. 

You can just check to see if I am keeping my word. 

You can use me as a mirror to reflect on yourself. 

Or who knows, you can be inspired by what I write, 

and that could be the extra boost you needed to take you to a higher level. 

I am not here for money, likes, follows or subscriptions. 

So just enjoy yourself...